Thursday, January 28, 2010

The controversy between relationships & having fun

Something that came to mind for the past few days is basically why men and women - although claimed to be equal- are still different in society's eyes.

The fact that men can do whatever and whomever and still not be judged really bothers me considering women who do the same thing are labelled, and not in a good way.

The way I see it is that with men, it's either you're in a relationship OR you're just a fuck buddy. No in betweens. I believe it's hard on the womens part because she has to choose between a relationship and basically being labelled.

Now, if she chooses to take on the role of not being in a relationship, but rather having fun with men, society seems to dislike that idea and this is when harsh names are being thrown around.

Back to the quote I mentioned earlier with men, it’s either you’re in a relationship OR you’re just a fuck buddy. No in betweens., if the girl chooses to be single and have her fun with men, will she be labeled as a slut? I’m pretty sure everyone’s heard the phrase “Stay single and go have fun with boys while you’re still young.” But what do they mean when they say “have fun”.. I spoke to my friend earlier today hoping she would have some advice on this topic:

NATALIE. says: people have a twisted perception of fun. people are so horny

Leah* says: yeah but seriously speaking when someone says go have fun with guys do you honestly think they’re telling u to go play checkers?

NATALIE. says: fun is sex to them and thats sad

Leah* says: its fun for everyone if you think about it, but what is a girls perception of the phrase "go have fun with guys"

NATALIE. says: the literal meaning of fun, being going and doing something spontaneous going to a movie or go-karting or something like that not just a sexual relationship

Leah* says: but then that leads to a relationship, which some people do not want when they’re young.

NATALIE. says: and girls really only want to have sex because they think that’s why guys will like them

Leah* says: not necessarily some girls just want their “piece” too

NATALIE. says: although there are some girls who are like guys and have that same mentality

Leah* says: i think this whole topic contradicts itself

NATALIE. says: i agree; its so complicated and u shouldn’t feel like u have to have sex in order to keep a guy around either because unfortunately a lot of girls think like that

Leah* says: no no that’s not what im thinking… in the words of jwoww "after I have sex with a guy I will rip his head off" my interpretation of that is, have your fun but with out emotions; fuck the guy and be gone. And if it makes you sound like a slut, so what? 434848943893489 guys do that and we girls can’t?

It’s a twisted and complicated world and I truly believe that if a girl wants to unleash herself a bit, then she should. If she’s not ready to settle down in a relationship, let her have her fun while she still can. If people don’t like it, then they shouldn’t care.

Don’t get me wrong though, I’m not saying every girl should go “fuck” every man possible. All I’m saying is that it is okay for women to let loose sometimes.

This whole discussion concludes with this thought:

Define the term “fun” when it comes to being with a man, but don’t get it twisted with relationship.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

But How am I even Functioning at This Hour?

hello,

it's 10:00 a.m. and I don't understand how I am even awake right now- hence this post's title.. I went to bed last night at 4:00 a.m. and was woken up at 9 to fix my stupid computer. I fixed it and now i'm writing in my blog LOL I really should be sleeping, atleast for another hour or so.

Today I have ALOT to do.. I need to start my christmas shopping considering its only 1 day away (for those of you who celebrate christmas eve!) I have to still buy for my entire family! I have no gift ideas for any of them, so i'm going to be "winging" it haha.

Ok I cant keep my eyes open anymore, i'll blog some more once I wake up lol

LATERRRRRRRRRR.

leahxoxo

Monday, December 21, 2009

Its almost christmas!

Hey everyone,

Wow so in like 4 days its christmas and to be honest it doesnt even feel like it. I havent done ANY christmas shopping, and I don't even know what I want lol... I guess it doesn't feel like actual christmas because for some odd reason, Woodbridge is lacking snow haha. Also, there has been alot of other things going on that has side tracked me from paying attention to this holiday lol... As seen in other posts I have been busy with life itself... the weekends are really the only 2 days i get to relax and party, which is pretty sad because during the week I don't work nor go to school... so where does ALL my time go, really? I wouldn't know lol

New Years 2010?= No plans.
I havent any plans this year, and new years is only a week or so away... While everyone is in montreal, I'm probably going to be sitting on my couch doing the friken countdown! YAY. not.
To be honest, I could care less about what I do for new years.. If I stay home, then I stay home.. I personally do not care in getting all dressed up this year, I just want a simple celebration for the new year.

It's currently 3:17 A.M. and i'm still awake, bored with nothing to do. I really dont feel like sleeping because every night for the past week I have had the MOST fucked up dreams.

I think I'm super hormonal right now lol, I have been insanely depressed and emotional today... over literally nothing. So right now, i'm "bleh"- no emotions

CRAZY/BEAUTIFUL= The cutest love movie ever
I've never watched this movie before, so tonight was my first time.. Lets just say that from start to finish tears poured out of my eyes like the nile river! It doesn't help that I was super emotional today, but this movie was sooo cute and sad at the same time that I couldn't help but to cry. If only real life was filled with men like "Carlos" who appreciate women who arent exactly "perfect" and do have flaws. This movie tonight made me think of someone... someone i'd rather leave "nameless" because I can't bring myself to even say his name anymore...
anyways- great movie.. if you havent seen it, YOU BETTER WATCH IT!


and I think I'm in love..... and not with the same old, someone new..........






leah xoxo

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

LOVE.

Hey there,
it's been a while once again LOL.. I used to write blogs like everyday and now i'm lucky if I even have the time, although my life is pretty boring at this current time.... Plus if I write everyday, I won't have much to say..

Alright so I am yet again JOBLESS. I didn't know calling in ONCE to inform your employer that you're going to be 15 minutes late due to a personal family reason could get you fired? I've never been late before, and I had to bring my mother to the hospital, but my stupid boss (ex-boss) doesn't really understand or take into consideration that I HAD TO BRING MY MOTHER TO THE DAMN HOSPITAL! Frig man. Whatever, $9.75 isn't worth my anger LOL.. Just gotta start looking around for a new job!

I am currently also out of highschool. I decided to drop out considering I have all my credits I need. The courses I was taking this year we're pretty hard, and also my average wouldn't have been good enough for college or university. I am now taking some time off, but I will be going to college in September for "Special Events Planning" at George Brown college... that is... if I get in. In the meantime I will start working full-time to get me out of the house, and ofcourse bring in some mad cash! haha.

New years is coming up in exactly 15 days, and I haven't the slightest idea what to do. Most of my friends will be in Montreal, so that leaves me with about 4-5 of my friends. I'm kind of lazy this year to do much. I want to get dressed up and everything, but at the same time I wouldn't mind staying in either. So if I'm going to do anything I need to get planning, and fast!

Congratulations to my papa! He just moved into his new house. Very excited and so proud of him. The house is very cute, and perfect for 3 people (Me, my brother, and my dad). I must say this house is in need of a major paintjob but it's a very relaxing and family-oriented house. All 3 floors are finished with wooden and ceramic tiled floors, and walls ofcourse LOL. The backyard is just the right size, and backs onto our neighbours backyards as well. It's great because it is literally a minute and thirty second walk from my moms house, which makes it ever so conveniently close. Congrats Pops, can't wait to build a new life in this new house with you and Marc!

I am happy to say that I have found a new love in my life. They have always been there, but I haven't taken the second to give them enough thanks; MY GIRLS! I always thought you were all out to get me, or atleast to try and run my life. But I realized that all you amazing ladies ever did was try to get me to see the real things in life. I love you girls. Thank you for putting up with me over the last few years, and especially the past 8 months. I also realized that I don't need a man to fulfill my every need (exception to one need;)LOL) but I have my friends who do that just by being in my life. Men will come and go, but my girls are forever<3 and I truly mean that with every inch of my body and soul. These past few months have been hard between moving houses, and a stupid depression I went through over someone not so important, but my girls stuck by me. They have seen me at my worst, and those know what I mean when I say "my worst". I can't thank you 4 wonderful ladies enough for all that you have done and continue to do. I love you and always remember that!

I will leave some more stories for tomorrows post,

Leah xoxo

Monday, November 23, 2009

Its been a while? haha

Oh heyyy,

soooo its been quite the while since i have written in my blog.. nothing is really all that interesting right now.. its the middle/end of november and nothing exciting has happened LOL I have a splitting headache, i feel like im dying LOL and on top of that I have a business test tomorrow, which i'm trying to study for...

The main reason for this post is to congratulate my girl, Lauren Del Nibletto for creating her first blog:) I love you girlfrieeeennd<3 And we need to get together soontimes because i really miss you, olroite.. anyways girl, keep blogging.. about anything you want! and FUCK what people have to say about it hahaha


I'm tired, i'm going to study..
LATER DOOOD

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Haven't written in my blog in SOO long!

Hey there,

I need some serious help LOL I am just too depressed for life right now. Nothing goes right ever. and im not even exaggerating one bit.

First of all, DONT FUCKING CALL ME A WHORE FOR MY PAST BECAUSE CLEARLY IM NOT FUCKING PROUD OF IT. I CANT GO BACK IN TIME AND CHANGE THINGS. BUT I CAN MOST DEFINETLY CHANGE AND CONTROL WHAT I DO IN THE FUTURE. FOR YOU TO MAKE UP SHIT ABOUT ME IS PRETTY LOW, BECAUSE WHAT YOU CLAIM I DID TO YOU, IS EXACTLY WHAT YOU DID TO ME! YOU FUCKING CHEATED ON ME! AND IM GETTING THIS MAD BECAUSE I DONT APPRECIATE BEING CALLED A WHORE FOR LITERALLY NO REASON, AND BEING ACCUSED OF CHEATING. WHEN YOU DAMN WELL I NEVER EVEN LOOKED AT ANOTHER GUY WHILE I WAS WITH YOU!!! UNLIKE YOU WHO TALKED TO GIRLS BEHIND MY FUCKING BACK. YOU PIECE OF SHIT! AND THE SADDEST PART OF ALL THIS, IS THAT I STILL FUCKING LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART EVEN AFTER ALL THIS SHIT YOUVE PUT ME THROUGH. I MUST BE FUCKING CRAZY.

ok thats one part of my ramp page.

Secondly, YOU ARE THE MOST FUCKING CONFUSING HUMAN BEING IN THIS WORLD. I DON'T KNOW IF YOUR COMING OR GOING. ONE DAY YOU'RE ALL :):):) AND THE NEXT YOU'RE A FUCKING MUTE. I DONT EXACTLY KNOW WHY I WASTE MY TIME WITH YOU. OOHHHH MAYBE BECAUSE YOURE THE FIRST PERSON IVE LIKED SINCE MY 6TH MONTH DEPRESSION OVER A FUCKING IDIOT.. WHICH YOURE PROVING TO ME RIGHT NOW THAT YOU MEN ARE ALL THE FUCKING SAME. ANYWAYS, I CANT GET MAD AT YOU BECAUSE YOU DON'T KNOW HOW I FEEL. AND I DONT PLAN ON TELLING YOU ANYTIME SOON. SO FUCK MY LIFE FOR THIS. LMFAO


ok thats part 2.
Thirdly, THE FUCKING SHIT I DO FOR. ALL THE FUCKING TIME. IVE HAD YOUR BACK, IVE BEEN BEHIND YOU 150% SINCE DAY ONE. THIS IS THE THANKS I GET!?!?!?!? YOURE EXTREMELY UNAPPRECIATIVE. MAYBE SOMETIMES I CAN GET OUT OF HAND AND ANNOY YOU. BUT DONT YOU SEE ITS BECAUSE I CARE ABOUT YOU SO FUCKING MUCH. YOU MEAN THE WORLD TO ME. AND IF I EVER LOST YOU I REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO. BUT BY YOU DOING THIS TO ME, AND PUSHING ME AWAY IS ONLY MAKING ME WANT TO DRIFT FROM YOU. IM ONLY LIKE THIS BECAUSE I ACTUALLY CARE ABOUT YOU. IVE CONFRONTED YOU ABOUT THIS ISSUE. BUT YOU JUST BRUSH IT OFF LIKE ITS NOTHING. SO IF THIS IS "NOTHING" TO YOU, HAVE FUN WITH YOUR OTHER SOMETHINGS.. BECAUSE THOSE SOMETHINGS WILL NEVER CARE ABOUT YOU LIKE THIS "NOTHING".



ok hopefully that made enough sense.

GOODBYE.