The Next Morning.

So last night after finishing off my previous post "The First Heartbreak," I went to bed feeling a little better that I had gotten something off my chest. However this morning I woke up feeling like crap still. I think I've become more depressed than ever. I miss him. I love him. And I want him.

I woke up at 11:30 a.m. (too late to go to school) due to my hardwork and effort put into my previous blog.

I really don't know what to do. I just can't seem to get him out of my head. I don't understand why this all happened. The break up, the heartbreak, he moved on, and i'm still here. I'm sorry but I will take the credit for being the girl that could actually put up with his crap. I know for a fact his new girlfriend will not last with all his stupidity. He may supposedly "love" her now, but wait a few months down the road he's going to do to her what he did to me.

It bothers me sooooo bad that I can't do anything about this. I mean all I really can do is move on but even when I try to be positive about moving on, he and all those memories are still in the back of my mind and I can't seem to erase them.

I believe the hardest part of this breakup, personally for me, would be saying goodbye to his family. They were such nice people. I looked at his parents like my second set of parents, and his sisters I looked up to as the sisters I never had. I mean how could a family that nice possibly have a son to be completely opposite of them? I know there's good in Angelo, I really do, but I don't understand why he struggles to show it.

If he only knew that I was the one... I'm not trying to make this a pity-post but I know for a fact that I am the one who can make him happy. Okay, maybe not with my previous actions which set him off, but I know I can. I was the one willing to try one more time because I wanted it badly to work. Those other girls don't understand him like I do. He told me the worst secrets about him and being a good person I've kept them a secret because he made me promise, and I am not one to break a promise no matter what happens. I understand him completely. Everything he feels I completely understand. I love him to the point where I want him to be happy, I care about everything he does. He's in school now, going for mechanics, and to be honest I'm happy for him. He's going to make something of himself which will definitely benefit him in the future.

We've been through so much to stop now. We've overcome stupid fights, we've overcome people who have tried to come between us, we overcame a friken car accident!!! I'm pretty sure we can overcome this stage were in. All it takes is a bit of effort.

But I'm not going to sit here and complain, first I must take care and love myself before anybody can. Right now I'm in a bit of a slump, but I will make it through because I'm Leah and I am a strong person, and if I put my mind to it, life can come so easy for me. I just need to keep trying. I believe that this all happened for a reason. Who knows maybe this happened to get myself back on track, go to school, and experience life. After all that is said and done, maybe who knows we'll meet again one day and something may happen..Who knows...

Anyways that's all I had to say. Stay tuned for more posts by me LEAH :)